so, why am i awake at 1am when i’m supposed to be getting up to go to work at 6am?

this is a common thing. i always forget about it, and am taken by surprise when it happens, but then i remember “oh yes … tomorrow’s a “special day” of some sort”. tomorrow i go back to work.

when i was young, i could never sleep the night before school went back. and even now, any night beforethe day  i am returning to work, i find myself completely unable to power down.

i suspect it is a mixture of trepidation and an out-of-sorts sleeping pattern. the sleeping i should know better by now (but i am a complete idiot), and the trepidation just makes no sense, but here we are. strange days, me not making sense, after all.

and because i worry about not being able to go to sleep, that exacerbates the situation, of course.

*sigh*