so anyway, I saw NIN at the Hordern Pav like, 6 months ago.

here’s what i wrote about it just after the fact (that i forgot to publish) :

“it was amazing. i’m so pleased i went. turns out it may be the last tour for a while, too, so i am doubly pleased. i missed Trent when i was grumpy at him for making With Teeth. but I am glad I got over it.  still don’t like With Teeth though. But Ghosts I-IV more than makes up for it.

I think the issue I had really stemmed from the fact that I was just a kid when I started liking NIN. I mean, I had the full obsession thing going on. And so I felt kinda betrayed I guess when Trent made something I didn’t like. I never expected not to like something Trent did.  but now i’m over that. i’m able to see in my (relatively newly developed) maturity that it doesn’t really matter anyway. and Trent can do what he likes, even if it is release music I don’t like. and if I don’t like it, I don’t have to buy it just because i used to be obsessed about collecting all the Halo releases :)

man, I remember at high school, my girlfriends and I all being so defined by the bands we liked, and you couldn’t have the same favourite band at someone else in the group … god, there were so many stupid rules to everything. my favourite band was Red Hot Chili Peppers for a long time, and then NIN from 1995 (i was in year 9) onwards.

you know, i have so many distinct NIN related memories:

- sitting on my school bus listening to Closer for the first time on my girlfriend’s discman and gasping because of how rude it was :)

- when i was about 15, going by myself into the city to go to Utopia to buy Pretty Hate Machine + my NIN shirt (my very favourite long sleeved shirt that’s falling apart)

- bonding over NIN with a guy I had a crush on and later going to his house to watch the Closure video

- a cute petite girlfriend of mine having the most ridiculously long Downward Spiral shirt i have ever seen

- one of my girlfriends gave everyone their own painted wine glass at our year 12 formal, and mine has the NIN logo on it … that was my most defining feature at school, that I was obsessed with NIN :)

- seeing NIN at the Big Day Out in early 2000 and getting to the front of the mosh pit by myself. i started crying when Trent came out on the stage. then i got my arse kicked thoroughly in the mosh pit and had to leave, so i stood at the back of the crowd sobbing to myself for almost the whole set.

(which, while very lame, is not unusual for that time in my life. when i saw the Phantom Menace at the cinema, I started bawling the second the Star Wars logo came up, because I was so overwhelmed - i just never imagined I’d get to see a movie from one of my favourite series’ at the movies)

And now I have this concert to add to my list of memories. Things like

- sharing the experience with good friends

- standing in line to buy shirts (this was a first for me)

- enduring the experience of buying overpriced water and vodka in plastic cups (something i haven’t done for a fairly long time)

- going absolutely mental to March of the Pigs (woohoo!!! \m/)

- sitting for 45 mins in the Hordern with only the emergency lighting on, no air conditioning or anything, because NIN rocked so hard there was a blackout (both sitting down at the Hordern, and enduring a blackout there are firsts for me as well)

- having a truly delicious meal beforehand at a restaurant i’d never been to before

- experiencing the awesomeness that is the Love Sac.

I was very very pleased they played March of the Pigs, Reptile, Terrible Lie, Something I Can Never Have, Gave Up and Wish. I was not expecting the Perfect Drug or Into The Void but it would’ve been nice :) I don’t remember what else they played. Oh, Survivalism, 1 000 000, The Hand That Feeds and Discipline. and some other stuff.

[sigh] It was nice being in the same room with him again, if only just for a few hours. :)”

[/fangirl]

i’ve gotten over the Trent obsession since then. partly due to all his carry-on recently in Twitter, and partly because that’s just what I do. however, I would definitely love to see NIN in concert again, if they ever tour again. it was a great night :)

i bit the inside of my lip during my sleep last night. i don’t know how or why, but it’s somewhat annoying, but thankfully not too painful.

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there’s a whole bunch of console games coming out soon - the husband and i had to discuss pros and cons of each and come up with a short list. so far, confirmed want-to-buys include : Uncharted 2, Bioshock 2, and Batman. plus the beloved is going to get the UFC game, but I’m not interesting in that and am even less interested in going halfies, so that’s all up to him.

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got our WoW characters up to level cap the other day, me for the first time ever. we’ve been raiding at every given opportunity since, and i am having so much fun. just being able to get together online with 9 other people i enjoy chatting to and playing WoW with, and then chatting and playing WoW - it’s just tops. i know lots of people don’t understand it, but that doesn’t worry me - because i sure don’t get a lot of things that other people do, so it all comes out in the wash.

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went to our friends’ place for dinner the other night which was so much fun. with work and stress, we haven’t been doing much socially of late, and it was so great to be able to catch up with our peeps, eat yummy home cooked food and have a few laughs.

with considerations to the diet, i drank too much beer and probably should’ve passed on the icecream dessert, but the whole thing was awesomely awesome, so i’ve not got too much guilt.

biggest hurdles i’m having with dieting at the moment are :

bread - i want it more often than not. it’s not that we’re avoiding bread generally, just if it’s not necessary. but i want it all the time. particularly soft fresh warm white rolls with melty butter on them.

drinking enough water - i don’t like drinking water. it bothers me. but i’m trying to get past it. some days i’m getting to 2 litres, but usually not. water has so many pluses, not least of all that it gets rid of toxins from bad things eaten, and makes you not eat as much by satisfying that hunger / thirst response, and i know all this but i still have trouble. it’s just so … boring.

and in case you’re wondering, yes, that is something that reminds me in no uncertain terms that i am a spoilt, middle-class white bitch. i’m working on that too.

my whole life is a work in progress.

title from For Whom The Bell Tolls by Metallica

last week, thursday i think, i had some bloods taken for the semi-regular check-up i inflict on myself, to make sure i am not subject to illnesses or conditions, such as the like of which my parents suffer from. as of yet, i have not had an opportunity to go and get the results, but i think i’ll go first thing in the morning tomorrow - otherwise they are too busy and i’m not inclined to sit in a waiting room with sick people for an hour or more.

anywho, i mention this because … my arm, the inner elbow bit, is still bruised from afore mentioned withdrawal. thankfully it doesn’t hurt anymore, but it’s all yellow and brown and suspicious-looking.  the idea of this bothers me - argh, internal bleeding - more than the reality, and it’s actually a fairly handy reminder that i need to get my results, but still, why so sensitif, antecubital fossa?

hugely busy week coming up. babysitting, dinners, a day of dvd watching, and then on Tuesday … [drum roll] NIN!

i am so excited. i hope it’s good. if it’s not, i’m going to send Trent Reznor hate mail.

not really. i can’t stay angry at him. but still. i am excited, and am trying hard not to be too excited, because that inevitably leads to overanticipation which leads to disappointment when the reality can not possibly live up to the imagined.

i *do not* over think things.

title from Life on Mars? by David Bowie

i’m feeling well and truly sorry for myself. my tummy is sore, i’ve got a headache and i’m miserable. but i’m blogging from bed using my lifedrive so things could be worse, i guess.

k + i just celebrated our 3rd wedding anniversary yesterday. on one hand, it seems like it couldn’t possibly be that long, and yet it feels like we’ve known each other forever. i guess that’s just how this whole thing works.

S+A just became S+A+E with the arrival of their new bubba, Emilia. How very exciting!

Relatedly, I smsed a girl I went to tafe with to tell her when Emilia was born - her name is Emily so I was able to use it as an excuse to say hello. We’re meeting up for coffee next week, which is excellent. Emily is great. She and I drifted apart after tafe but I still consider her a friend and one of the nicest people I’ve ever known. So naturally I’m very pleased to be catching up with her.

Anyway, back to my point - big congratulations for S+A on the arrival of their little girl. Wish the world wasn’t so big.

Got a long weekend coming up. I have plans for not getting dressed at all on Monday and totally vegging out. Fingers crossed.

i have not been posting because i have been a bit boring. so, let’s see: my mum was here for the weekend, which was fun as usual. we went to the ballet to see gathering which was really groovy, and we hung out at my place a bit. she beat me in scrabble. that’s twice in two weeks. boo. then we ate lots of krispy kremes on sunday afternoon and made ourselves ill. wee!

my best friend got herself a sweet promotion, and is looking at moving down near us. yay! i have my fingers crossed for that!

j+s’ wedding the other week was very lovely, and lots of fun. everyone looked so pretty too. and it was excellent to get to hang out with s+a a bit more before they left. and its always fun seeing certain people getting drunk, not mentioning any names that start with ‘e’ :p

we went away last weekend after the wedding, which was very nice too. i love the south coast so much. i think we might retire down there. i would like to build a “summer home” too, but thats hardly likely, and probably not worth it long term. but there are cows! and i could own a cow or two. fun!

oooh, kurt got a new mobile phone cos he accidentally broke his previous one. and it’s so sexy, and i am so jealous. i plan on stealing it when he’s not looking and painting my old one to look like the new one. muahaha. its a 6230i. and it has a memory card, and the camera takes halfway decent pictures, and you can put songs on it and use them as ringtones, super easily.

i want a new bed. wah. they’re so ’spensive, its not fair. someone buy me a bed. kthxbye.